I am a post abortive Christian woman trying to help others just like me. Sounds strange doesn't it? I am a Christian and I'm admitting I've had an abortion! During the time of my abortions...yes I said abortions...plural; during these years my walk with God was virtually none existant. I became a Christian as a young teenager and had no one to guide me in my new Christian walk, so after a few years I started to stray! Funny though, now looking back at it all, I can see how God never left my side. I can see how he allowed me to go so far and then he would pull me back, right at the brink of destruction. This is why after many, many years, I had to write about my experiences. It's been burning in my heart for a long time but I fought it long and hard. Finally I said "Ok Lord" I'll sit down and write about my ugly past in hopes it might help someone else not make the same horrible mistakes that I made! After 3 years of starting and stopping I finished my book "No One to Hear Their Cries!" It was very difficult to do! I'm not an eloquent writer and I don't know if it will reach people in the way it's meant to? I don't know if it will shed any light on abortion or help someone find healing after having had an abortion, but I have to try; even if it helps only one person! Telling my despicable story will most likely bring me alot of ridicule and even more shame yet I have to do it! There has to be more Christian ladies like myself that are still hurting; even after decades later! I was conviced my baby was a blob of tissue and I was doing nothing wrong by having an abortion, but God knew better. I wouldn't listen, so on my last abortion God showed me the truth! It took holding my aborted baby in the palm of my hands to open my eyes to the truth about abortion. It was then that I realized what I had been doing. It's been a long agonizing road keeping this secret deep down inside of me. My walk with God grew strong again and that's a good thing because it took his strength, as I had none of my own, to pull me through the crazy life I had been living. Thankfully, God is merciful and forgiving; even when you've had multiple abortions like I have. It's very hard to forgive myself but I know God has forgiven me! He can turn any bad situation into something that can be used for good! I simply must listen to my heart at what he is telling me to do now! If you get a chance to read my book...if you or someone you know has had an abortion and needs healing...you aren't alone. I narrate my story, my experiences and suddenly take you to a point as if you were right beside me through the whole ordeal. You'll see how God was trying to get my attention over and over but I wouldn't listen. Finally, you'll be with me when God reveals the whole ugly truth about abortion; right before my eyes! Maybe my book will help someone; I don't know for sure but if it helps only 1 person then it will have been worth it all!

Posted on Wednesday 16 of July, 2008 [19:48:13 UTC]