Before You Were a Prophet

by Todd Heldt

ISBN: 978-1-4116-6514-9
Publisher: Sarah Nash-Lee
Copyright: © 2005  Standard Copyright License
Language: English
Country: United States
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Printed: 225 pages, 6" x 9", perfect binding, black and white interior ink

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Mark Miller has spent his life half-ass repenting for all the things he's done wrong, but there's one blotch on his record that he can't erase. He wants to forget his transgressions and pursue a passionless life as an academic, but his new roommates force him to confront his past. Ever since he killed that man in Texarkana, Mark’s been hiding from “the unnerving stare of God.” Now he has to endure his roommates’ southern-fried theories about religion. If he can survive their “spiritual experiments,” live through a drive-by shooting, outwit the old lady next door, escape from the cops, figure out the secret of the bus stop signs, and return the forty-foot-tall inflatable green gorilla to its rightful owners, he might just catch a glimpse of what he’s been looking for.


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6 Jun 2007
Much like Kerouac or Steinbeck, his portrayals, even at their campiest and most satirical, are true.

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27 Jan 2006 (updated 20 Mar 2006)
In part, Mr. Ulmen had this to say:

[Heldt] creates believable characters with whom we can readily identify, and he spices the story with dialogue that is genuine bible-thumping redneck. Whether it is Tramp and his pipe bomb, Jennifer the stripper, being at the Monster Truck Races with dimwitted Tracy, attending the fundamentalist church service, or sitting in on the open microphone poetry contest in which the judges are rigged, the characters are marvelous, and Heldt has the ability to put the reader right in the middle of the action. Jeff Foxworthy could get a wealth of new material from this book.
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19 Dec 2005 (updated 20 Mar 2006)
The Science of Broken People,
Little Poem Press, 2004


How do we live in a world that tempts us with transcendence even as it demands that we accept being our own passage? There is no way to love but the hard way, and Todd Heldt's poems discover that the pursuit of meaning is identical to the attainment of love. He does not insist that we overcome the so-called human condition but that we learn the difference between false dilemmas and genuine ones, finding poignancy in recognizing that our limitations, if not fully comprehensible, have an inviolable comprehending power. These well-crafted poems suggest that poetry itself is the science of broken people, is the means for deliberating about the ends to which we know we don't deserve to come, but from which we can attain much more than what might have been.

--Gale Acuff, author of Buffalo Nickel


I have an affinity for things that are vaguely gothic in the Faulknerian sense, and these poems fit the bill. Ghostly train-wrecks and car crashes, crosses lining the road...all filtered through a richness of language, image and rhythm that's incredibly haunting. I get the feeling that the speaker in these poems lives inside them and makes them breathe, which is a sense I don't get with a lot of work I've seen--the "oh, I'm so cool, let me tell you about the mundane minutae of my daily life" school of poetry. These poems are important and engaging, every single damn one.

--Kristy Bowen, author of Bloody Mary (Dancing Girl Press, 2004) and The Archaeologist's Daughter (forthcoming, Moon Journal Press).


All poets write about sex, religion, and death. These are universal fears and thrills. But Heldt writes from experience--the death of his friends, time lost in white hospital rooms, and rebirth, and that image that comes up again and again in his poetry - one life lost to save the life of another:
I wished / I were one of the paramedics / touching her face like ice / afraid it would melt in my palms / or one of the policeman -- / anything to bring me closer...
He writes with passion, with beautiful images and hard juxtapositions....His words are scar tissue, expelled, wrenched from somewhere between the heart and the sternum, or just beneath the blood-brain barrier. He tells us we are all as empty as we choose to be:
Don't worry, mister./Nobody's dead here but us.

--Rachel Kendall, editor of Sein und Werden


"These poems will move you, will get in under your skin and stay there for a good long while."

--Feithline Stuart, editor of Saucy Vox




Walking Again
self-released audio CD, 2002


Something of the recklessness of a life pushed and felt to its limits presses against Heldt's words. I'm startled when I read or listen to his poetry. . .startled by the way his words are forced to convey pain, humiliation and tenderness; startled, also, by the leaps he makes, by the easy way he accesses God: out of the dust of Lubbock, Texas, out of a nude modeling session, out of. . .a dead blue jay at the bus depot or dead robins in the backyard. Heldt finds in the most banally depressing of moments more than just poetry; he finds truth - like how, as violence begets violence, the victims are increasingly innocent. His poetry breaks your heart, but it never stops being unbearably funny, such as this line from "Junior High Achievement Award":
"That night my dad asked/why I smelled like piss,/so I prayed to die." These words, which are about survival, celebrate all of us in our most lost, frightened moments; they teach us how language heals.

-- Bob Koehler, writes a syndicated column called "Common Wonders,"
and has won awards for journalism and fiction.


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