Research shows that up to 65% of adoptive parents will go through post adoption depression. Little is written about it, less is discussed. This book is an account of my time there in the dark days after we brought our daughter home. "I'm hiding in the dark, kneeling on the floor of my walk-in closet, praying. Well, I wouldn't really call it praying. Mostly I'm just fighting back tears and trying unsuccessfully to gain control of my emotions. And if I'm being honest, I'm here mainly to hide from my children. And when I say children, I mean her. How long has she been here? Days, weeks, months, and still I'm not doing better. What the heck is my problem? I need to get a grip. The guilt is insurmountable. She needs me. She needs and deserves a mother. She deserves to be loved, finally. And yet I am still regretting the decision. I put myself into this situation. I asked for her to be here. And now I do this? Hide? Cry? Seethe? I suck."...More >< Less