Fire in the Bedroll (Llamarada de Petate)

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An autobiographical account of a marriage that looked idyllic from the outside.She: a missionaries’ kid, intelligent, educated, conscientious. He: a minister of the gospel, Seminary graduate, family man, charming host. Together: parents, home owners, church-planters. In reality: a battered wife. Frightened children. Sudden violence. Lies and manipulation. Sixteen years of fear. This book exposes the corrupt heart of the marriage and explores the questions, “Why didn’t she just leave?” and “How did she finally break the bonds that held her?” I offer no professional opinions, propose no legislation, espouse no theories. I only tell my story, as it happened, in hopes that it may help someone else to find her way to the sunlight.
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  • By Nicki Boyd
    Mar 8, 2013
    I sing my praises for Susanah Anderson who had the courage to write such a personal account of her life within an unbelievably abusive relationship. Her story in Fire in the Bedroll is so well written and, of course, true to her missionary style, without lamentation. She tells it how it was. She recounts how a bad marital situation can be flamed from a small cinder into a raging fire. Each abusive blow she accepts is like climbing a ladder leading to more intense abuse until she gets to the last rung and finds there is no more ladder. Here she finds the courage to break the missionary ties that have shackled her for so long and leaps into the unknown. It is heart wrenching to read how many years pass and how much tyranny is endured for the sake of “love, honour and obey” which her missionary upbringing brainwashed her into believing. A pastor’s wife was duty bound to support her husband even if it meant she and her children were forced to numb their emotional pain. Facing cockroaches... More > and scorpions paled in comparison to dealing with this psychopathic monster. It is not for us to judge why Susanah did not leave sooner. Under the same circumstances, it is difficult to know what any of us would have done. This book is a must read especially to those who are blind in the face of abuse. No one should have to tolerate abuse for any reason…least of all for God. It’s not what He is all about. Yeah to Susanah, who “saw the light” and redressed the cycle of abuse for her family and generations to come.< Less
  • By Karl Frostrup
    Oct 15, 2009
    "I read it!!" I stayed in bed all day, Sunday, Dec 26, 2004 and read your book cover to cover. I found it very enlightening. I won't go into too much detail here, suffice to say it was great reading this history from your perspective. ------------------------------------------------------------ Well, maybe I'll make a few comments: An important feature of your book is the recognition of positive elements, times, people... . Also, grounding the story in terms of MK 'culture' is vitally important, as it explains much about the context of decisions made. Readers not familiar with this background may overlook, or not fully appreciate, the difficulties faced. This book does not dwell on gory details. This is also, in my opinion, an important point. Though there are excruciating glimpses into a number physical situations, they are not sensationalized. I believe this helps point the reader to the insidious yet severe nature of emotional abuse. Finally: “Way to go!!!” I hope... More > many, many people are exposed to this book. It will speak to someone, somewhere, and give him or her the push needed to recognize and change a bad situation. Karl< Less
  • By Susannah Anderson
    Feb 23, 2005
    "Fire in the Bedroll" a review by Dee Ann MillerAuthor of How Little We Knew and The Truth about Malarkey . What happens when parents brainwashed in fundamentalism raise their children the same way? A lot of dysfunction. That’s what Fire in the Bedroll is all about. Make no mistake about it—not all ministers, not all missionaries raise their children the way the author was raised. Not all ministers are abusive or engage in sexual misconduct either, though the percentage of perpetrators in the profession is far too high. While plenty of naivety abounds in the faith community, there are plenty of families that manage to impart a great deal of health to their children while doing God’s work. Yet few do so while embracing strict adherence to the literal meaning of “wives submit.”. Fire in the Bedroll clearly illustrates what happens when children, isolated and “sheltered” from reality, grow up. Low self-esteem often finds a mate with equally low... More > self-esteem. Yet the children are unable to live, except by the script that has been so rigidly written for them. The result is often decade after decade of remaining under the spell while calling it normal, all the while bringing up another generation of children who have difficulty writing their own script. In this case, it involved marrying a guy who had been kicked out of seminary, couldn’t keep a job, never managed to stay in one place for long, yet someone whom the wife and author saw as a clergyman for many years before he ever managed to find a vulnerable congregation! Oh, how she needed to believe in the fantasy!. The book is often dramatic, especially the final chapters. It reads like a Lifetime TV movie, with the reader on the edge, hoping and praying that the victimized wife and children are able to escape. What relief when it finally happens! The most shocking to me, even as a seasoned listener of such stories, was the collusion of the author’s father when he aided the perpetrator royally after the wife and children had managed to escape!. It is impossible to describe the eery feeling that came over me personally, though, when I came to the word "Duncan." That was the name of the small city where my husband and I chose to take our family for furloughs from our own mission service, beginning only four years after Susannah's terror ended. Yet, Duncan, OK was also the location of the final chapters of this book, a place where collusion from at least one person was so evident! The place where Susannah's family ended up before their final escape, only a few years before we arrived in Duncan ourselves, devastated ourselves from collusion with sexual harrassment and abuse on the mission field.. This is a story that provides considerable insight into life within a dysfunctional, abusive clergy marriage, as well as sexual misconduct as experienced by the spouse of the perpetrator. It does so regardless of the fact that much of the story transpires in Mexico, in a cross-cultural marriage. The problem and the dynamics are the same, no matter the setting and no matter the culture. A good deal of tightening in the middle, leaving out some of the superficial scenery would have made the book considerably more readable as a case study. I also longed to have more dates for the various parts of the story. Yet it is a precious gift, worth the read for anyone who needs to understand just how difficult it is to break the cycle of intergenerational abuse and victimization, in clergy homes or in any family.< Less
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