You Don't Belong Here
A Metaphysical Journey to Surviving Shame, Role of Family Scapegoat, and Dementia-Caregiver
Tamara’s story is a metaphysical evolution from personal failures, shame, guilt, and depression toward using and protecting her empathic gifts. She writes how she pragmatically applied what she learned through spiritual, psychological, theosophical, mythical, and religious studies toward a fixed psychology of self-love. Her lay research in these disciplines contributed to her emotional stability despite the moments she felt utterly crushed by family, coworkers, the role of caregiver, and life.
Although a brother’s suicide initially spawned her search, she would learn that her Native American roots contributed to a fixed, flawed self-image among her family members. Her father (Swede/Inupiaq) was raised in Nome, Alaska, where Eskimos were considered “the dogs” of the community. Self-hatred was seared into his DNA, which he consequently infused into the culture of his own family.
Since love and emotional safety were absent in her family, she initially dedicated her life to faith in the Evangelical promise of a loving and safe community. Perhaps, she thought, Jesus would always protect her, but when the born-again culture felt increasingly more like a delusion than a guarantee, she abandoned the Church. She then discovered Krishnamurti’s theosophical teachings on elevated consciousness and awareness and Joseph Campbell’s teachings on myth—its wisdom and capacity to inspire in a person her metaphysical connection to compassionate energies that can propel one beyond fear and the mundane.
Further study in Buddhist teachings, Old Testament stories (as myth), and chakra energy, to name a few, helped her brave and build resilience while choosing a path to spiritual fulfillment among loveless family members and their enablers who reject empaths who are independent, complex thinkers, ask too many questions and see the elephant(s) in the room.
Tamara’s teachers gave her the courage to endure Machiavellian shame-based environments as well as survive the dozen years of caring for her dementia-inflicted mother.
Details
- Publication Date
- Sep 4, 2024
- Language
- English
- Category
- Biographies & Memoirs
- Copyright
- Some Rights Reserved - Creative Commons (CC BY)
- Contributors
- By (author): Tamara Burgh
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