After what you been through and what was done . Have every asked this one question. God do you look at me the same . After you repent after you made the mistake. After you realized what you did . As God knows every hair on are head . So does the Holy spirit. When a prophet are Holy person been around you. Some of them are actually prayer for you fervently. That you may secede that you make it. And that God bless you. Inspired of what they said about you. I keep you on the alter praying to God on your behalf. I shalt out answer I felted you where yearning for. I sent out search a request. Team on your behalf even if you didn't think you need it. And that's the truth.