“I felt like someone who had discovered the house he had lived in for a decade had a sub-basement, filled with sprawling tunnels, dark and damp and impossible to see from the top of the stairs. Some dark, secret sadness that I could not entirely comprehend was becoming visible to me. Moreover, people I have held close to my heart shared this secret sadness in ways I did not understand.” From Suicide Peaks with the Tulips and Lilacs In this collection of revised essays from local newspapers, social media and community blogs, David Beard turns his eyes toward the uncomfortable dimensions of gender, race, and life in Duluth.