Until It Felt Normal

There are some versions of ourselves that disappear so slowly we don't realize they're gone until years later. Until It Felt Normal is a collection of reflections on sadness, loneliness, self-hatred, exhaustion, and the quiet ways pain changes a person over time. It explores what happens when emotions become too heavy to carry, when loneliness begins to feel familiar, and when survival slowly starts shaping who you are. This is not a book about finding perfect happiness or having all the answers. It's about learning to exist alongside difficult emotions, mourning the parts of yourself that changed, and understanding that surviving something quietly does not make it any less real. For anyone who has ever felt lost within their own mind, this book is a reminder that they are not the only one.