When I Close My Eyes

I wake up and it’s dark. It feels as though there’s a cloud in my head. I can’t think. I can’t focus . . and I can’t feel my body. I’m not scared. Just confused. It’s all blurry in my mind. Am I talking? I must be. There are nurses around me and they are answering me. “You’re in the hospital,” someone says. Hospital? “Do you remember what happened?" I don’t care. I just close my eyes. I have to pray that one day I won't be haunted by my memories when I close my eyes. 'When I Close My Eyes' is the true story of a lonely girl's struggle to survive through the daily struggles of an ordinary life while tormented by depression. Her journey takes her through years of self loathing and self distruction, battling eating disorders and self harm . . . and the love from her friends and family who never give up on her. They can only watch her tear herself apart and hope she will one day have the strength to find her place in an adult world.