Can you feel too much to feel anything? Meet Anna. Anna, who can navigate the greatest crisis with a pulse of sixty beats per minute. Anna, who traded being a wall of ice for being a sensation seeker. In this moving debut novel, the author takes the reader deep into the mechanism of trauma and numbness. It is a journey through five stages of reclaiming oneself: from a frozen childhood, through a perfect mask of adulthood, to risky experiments with pain. Inside this book, you will find: A raw account of relational trauma: No sugar-coating, no unnecessary metaphors. Somatic analysis: How the body stores fear and why simply thinking about emotions isn't enough to start feeling again. The path to integration: The process of building internal safety—the only key to authenticity. This book does not offer easy answers. It does, however, offer a genuine insight into what happens to a person forced to disconnect from themselves. A must-read for anyone who has ever felt "outside" their own life.