After a life of abuse one day, I had an epiphany. Suddenly my life took a dramatic change for the better. For forty years I embraced alcohol, drugs, both legal and not so legal. Processed junk food, and everything in my life revolved around negativity. Life sucks and then you die was my motto. All my friends lived by the same creed. Party hard because life sucks and then you die. Boy, was I wrong. My entire adult life I had been living a lie. Quite frankly I was subconsciously trying to kill myself. What other reason is there for putting poisons in your body multiple times a day unless you truly are trying to kill yourself? Well, I almost succeeded twice during a twelve-year period of addiction to legal painkillers. Two times I was hospitalized with what turned out to be corrosive bleeding ulcers. Opium based medicine would have been the final nail in my coffin had I not changed my life dramatically. After the second weeklong hospital stay, and some deep soul searching, I decided to live. Since 2014 I have studied how to grow and medicate with natural fruits, vegetables, and herbs. Cannabis was a large part of my recovery, and I still use it in my arsenal for a balanced healthy life. I spent 8 - 12 hours a day reading about plants, our cells, how our bodies work, how cannabis works with our body, positive thinking, and how negativity destroys our cells. How nature supports humans and vice versa, how humanity supports nature. We need each other.